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Well well its seems dat my 2 loyal fans had been clamouring for me to update my blog.

Hmmm
Im sure all u god fearing pple noe Ramadan is coming in a few wks time. It seems that im not really cleansed yet n i wont be for a few hundred years hahahaha.
Fasting, i dont really mind fasting its not much of a big deal n it helps my financial sitn as well.
But i dont tink im sincere enuff doing it n it makes me feel a bit of a hypocrite.
N u noe y?
Cos im a bloody sinner dats y
When it ends, i return back to my old habits n the same old story again
Sure as hell gonna burn in hell

Feeling a bit blue nowadays
Like im sick of skool now n its onli been 2 wks
Like 2 day i spent the whole day sleeping
Wat a crappy day
Thot abt following my workmates to Devils today but decided not too
Financial thing again
U r born alone n u die alone
Juz u n the damp earth
Do we really have souls or we juz decompose
Wat a shiity state Islam is in rite now
Damm the hijackers of the faith
Cheering on Hizboolah
for fuck
Till when will they realise
Dat violence begets volence
wld it improve the sitn if Israel got a bloody nose
No
Go n fuck the US for all u want but there is not gonna be a dar al islamiyah
We lost our way long ago with our petty quarrels
Name me now a model Islamic state
None
N u noe y
we still hark back to our socalled glory years, chained by memories of old
Those times had gone
Look fwd damm it not behind
The children's hunger could not be satisfied with memories
All the riches of the earth n wat u do
Squander it on ur fucking excesses
N wat u do blame it on others
Yeah yeah we used to have all those big thinkers,mathematicians
but where are they now
they r dust
Use ur bloody head
we r created equal man n woman
Instead u repress them
Y? Damm it
Capitalism is killing us extremism is killing us consumerism is destroying us
Those that live in squalor perish in squalor
Is there no light at the end
There is none
no happy ending just u n the freaking silence
Just roll it up boys n girls n it takes u places where the Lightbringer comes.
Smile.

Roll with it - Oasis

Well it had come to my attention dat the magic words had been uttered to hafiz already
Hmmm it needs some modification den
tink the middle finger will do nicely or a more refined one will be to follow the Brits n give him an up urs sign
Tink dat will shock him senseless( as it comes frm a demure gal, i think) n be free ot add on the 2 words
egs muthafucka, sonofabitch, biatch n much more
I'll be grateful to help u on dat
hahahaha
damm bored n hafiz u made us sound gay
no offence to the homosexual community out there, hey wateva makes u happy aite

Roll with it

You gotta roll with it
You gotta take your time
You gotta say what you say
Don't let anybody get in your way
'Cause it's all too much for me to take
Don't ever stand aside Don't ever be denied
You wanna be who you'd be
If you're coming with me
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I'm gonna take me away and hide
I'm thinking of things that I just can't abide
I know the roads down which your life will drive
I find the key that lets you slip inside
Kiss the girl, she's not behind the door
But you know I think I recognize your face
But I've never seen you before


You gotta roll with it
You gotta take your time
You gotta say what you say
Don't let anybody get in your way
'Cause it's all too much for me to take

I know the roads down which your life will drive
I find the key that lets you slip inside
Kiss the girl, she's not behind the door
But you know I think I recognize your face
But I've never seen you before
You gotta roll with it
You gotta take your time
You gotta say what you say
Don't let anybody get in your way
'Cause it's all too much for me to take
Don't ever stand aside
Don't ever be denied
You wanna be who you'd be
If you're coming with me I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside
I think I've got a feeling I've lost inside

The Abg Lobz Speaking

I was a fucking dumbass in SMU today.
First day of lessons, all cool looking n guess wat for the 2 modules im taking, iwent to the wrong freaking rooms.
Twice! dammmm
The first one i have to blame SMU.
How the fuck shld inoe there is a diff betwn network seminar rm n seminar rm
Was in "analytical skills" instead of my Democracy module
Luckily a student help me out
pointing ot to the pompous Nus kid where the fuck is the appropiate rm
2nd one iblame myself, thot dis time wld not be malu
the rm was 3.10
I thot the idiots put the xtra 0 for fun,laughter peace n joy
So iwaited outside 3.1 like a moron
Luckily irealised in time so not dat paiseh
But stilllll aiyoh
iwas nver dis moronic in nus
But the lessons were cool seminar style more participation den in Nus where mst of the time i just doze off at the back of lecture.

Hmmmm makes for interesting reading my fren's blog
All about Kaaba n thingy. apologies n all dat
Hahaha amusing in fact
Was curious abt wat he said so went voyeuring to the other party blog Deebz if im not wrong
Well as being sumone who knew dat boy for abt 6 yrs oredi being his jc buddy n all
I got dis to say to deebz
He is an incorrigible marehole who like to shoot his mouth off most if not all the time
Hey dats y we got along
We r 2 irritating pricks
But seriously dont take it too hard aik
No need to get so emo with him
Altho he may be crass sumtimes( Luckily u had nvr interacted with me , im worse Vulgarities spewing + rude, hahaha)
hes one damm hell of a fren
im serious
How can a quran reciting, prayer loving, agama fanatic have a close fren like me who is a gin-loving tobacco smoking, vulgar spouting sonofabitch
Its becos hes one guy u want to keep as a fren, yeah the comments cld get irritating sumtimes but learn to play the game
My god i sound like a damm wuss)
Nobody is perfect except for me of course hahaha
So my deargirl
words do hurt but its how much u let it hurt u dat is more impt( macam real je kyai)
Well if it still dont work u can say the magic words
F#$k off
Joking yah
Hahhaha feeling very abangish
Fiz jgn kembang aku tetap lagi sachok
N to the missus i love the pics

Budding Rockstar

Haha..a picture of Kyairil singing his heart out on Saturday night when we went Karaoke-ing.
And beside him is Ridzal eating his booby-like jelly I think















Entry and Picture Courtesy of Suebaby

Verbal bovine excretions

Went to Smu to register now. Its a damm different environment from NUS n the pple were like super friendly. Chatted with some Swedish students n was thinking of asking them a stupid qn.
" Hmm so u guys like Abba?"
Wonder what their reaction is gonna be
Plaudits to SMU the matriculation was superbly executed, everything was smooth n there were students all smiley n happy ready to assist even me with my stupid queries.
N u noe wat my temp student pass was completed in less than 5 min n icld pose as well
Altho the posing didnt help my pic
I always look like shit in photos.
Damm shld have tilted to the right instead
Regrets, regrets
hahaha

Well speaking abt campus
In my 2 yrs here now entering the third, i dont really have made many new frens in campus. Most are the hi n bye kind, u got wat i mean rite
I do stop n have a chat with some of them but when holiday kicks in
Sayonara nus not much contact with its pple
My old gang is still my preferred buddies n if they r busy or sumting my work mates or vice versa
Of course there are exceptions duhhhhhh
Amusing, ( well to me at least)
so far in Nus i onli have a female fren each from the cohorts.
Dats all, idont noe the rest of the female popl, well dats a lie
but they r the hi bye types
Altho now i need to be frens with a yr 1
hahhaha jgn marah
But its funny the Melayu gals wld sometimes stare at me like im some Kung Bushmen
I surmise they knew im Mly( if u r surprised by this revelation, then im sory to say u r abigger dickhead than me)
N i dont really fit the picture of a male Mly Muslim undergrad
Hey most pple dont believe me whne they asked wat im doing now
Ask my colleagues, they laughed when they knew im a U boy
I cld be termed as "rosak" which to a large extent from a social n religous pt of view quite an accurate description
Hmmm dat cld xplain the stares or maybe im jsut a good looking sonofabitch
hahahha ego wat
Smoking, Drinking n a piercing( onli missing the tattoos) oops i forgot non-praying
U see if im not Mly muslim, iwld be a nomal student but i am Muslim
N guess wat im comfortable with myself, vulgarities n crassness all
Dis is no act of rebellion or a rage against the system or machine (which i must say is a damm good band altho stupid Zach decided to ciao)
Plsss im too damm old for dat oredi
Its just me
take for eg smoking when i was 15 yep for coolness but now, im like a trout on a hook
its a freaking additive substance i shld noe cos i took drugs n society in yr 1
So boys n gals pls dont smoke inoe its cool but u gonna regret it but wtf u onli live once hahahhaa
Well back to the point of frens after meandering ard
Kinda pathetic but who the fuck cares
I dont
Im a damm loner, i dont like to be ard new pple unless they r hot mama sitas
N im not the friendliest bloke ard either n most importantly..........

I dont give a rat's ass whether i have many frens in skool or not
If i wanted to icld have join all the Pbms n the MSss
But i dont so dats the bottomline cos Kyai said so
Yes i noe its an austin ripoff so wat sue me
I think i suck at blogging
But who cares its mine after all
Ciao

INXS

Beautiful Girl

Nickys in the corner
With a black coat on
Running from a bad home
With some cat inside
Now where did you find her
Among the neon lights
That haunt the streets outside
Stay with meBeautiful girl
(stay with me)Beautiful girl(stay with me)
She wants to go home
From door way to door way
Street corner to corner
With neon ghosts in the city
And she sings
Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay with me
Shes so scared
So very frightened
Anything could happen
Right here tonight
Beautiful girl(stay with me)
Beautiful girl(stay with me)
She wants to go home
Beautiful girl(stay with me)
Beautiful girl(stay with me)
Beautiful girl(stay with me)
Beautiful girl(stay with me)

Lazy Mon afternoon

Its a Mon afternoon and guess what?
Just woken up and feel like hitting the bed again.
But since i have no lectures n work 2day, will be doing some chores for the family.
Like going to Raffles to get a new digital box
I do really need to retake my gantung license, such a hassle being public tpt limited
but im just a damm procastinator n its been nearly 2 yrs
i tink the missus had given up hope.
Yahhhh!!!
Dats what i need to read for the upcoming sem.
Beating Procastination 1101
I wonder if SMU is offering it
Im really sick in the head.

Read someting on a fren blog
Abt condonong drinking n all dat talikg abt punks n skinheads
Sumbody commenting it means losing direction in life
Makes for interesting reading
Well for me
Its how the person lives his or her daily life dats impt
Im not saying dat the rest of the rituals n observances of religon r not impt
They r as well but n dis my personal opinion
Its how u live ur life dat is the crux of it cos basically religion teaches us to be good
We r all God's creatures aik n the bottomline is just be nice
Dats it dats the Almighty msg to us all
Just be nice.
Simple
Dont noe y there r idiots still fighting wars over it
Tink its becos just like natlism, religion is the last refuge of the scoundrel
Well dats just a thot n if u are not down with dat
well u can go n S**k it
Sorry b if im offensive
Ciao

Not much ranting 2day

Finally SMU accepted my application. It seems like my future Tuesdays wld be spent there although i still dont have much clue what modules to read there.
But im still wondering y they need to charge 70 bucks for registration
But well dats life wat to do
On the flipside im not gonna be in NUS much, gonna miss welcoming the fresh meat coming in
Hahhaha only joking my missus
Seems i dont have any issues to rant for now. Heres a song frm my past
Njoy

City High

What Would You Do


Boys and girls wanna here a true storySaturday night was at this real wild partyThey had the liquor overflowin' the cupAbout 5-6 strippers tryin' to work for a buckTook one girl outside with meHer name was LonnieShe went to junior high with meI said, "Why you up in there dancin' for cash?"I guess a whole lot has changed since I seen you last
What would you do if your son is at homeCryin' all alone on the bedroom floorCause he's hungryAnd the only way to feed himIs to sleep with a man for a little bit of moneyAnd his daddy's goneSomewhere smokin' rock nowIn and out of lockdownI ain't gotta job nowSo for you this is just a good timeBut for me, this is what I call life
Girl the only one with a babyThat's no excuse to be livin' all crazyAnd then she looked me dead square in the eyeAnd said everyday I wake up hopin' to dieShe said, Nigga I know about pain causeMe and my sister ran away so my daddy wouldn’t rape usBefore I was a teenagerI've done been through more shit you can't even relate to
(what would you do if)Get up on my feet and let go of every excuse (What would you do if)Cause I wouldn't want my baby to go through what I went through (What would you do if)Get up on my feet and stop making tired excuses (What would you do if)Girl if my mamma can do it, baby you can do it

Campaigns oooooo how i dig them hahaha

Well i just got home from work n no...... i did not drink tonite.
The missus seems to be asleep already altho u cant really tell cos she got dis habit of not answering her phone at times. Hahaha jgn marah baby.
Just recently read an interesting article frm a very crappy newspaper abt a campaign being promoted to discourage premaritial sex.
I seriously applaud those behind it n let me present to u the very catchy slogan they use which i literally translated frm Malay
Its More Sexy to Say No
Hahahahaha well u noe wat i think, it wont work u gd intentioned ppl.(Forgive them for they know not what they do)
Im sure there are plentyof other previous campaigns n does it work????? No!!!!!!
U got to understand the hiuman psyche man, its natural to have sex married or not
We beendoing it for ages....cos u n me r nothing but mammals so lets do it like they do onthe discovery channel
hahahhaha
But tink abt it isnt it true. Its freaking hard not to
Just Look at our blardy entertainment
Furthermore boys n girls its just aint cool to litsen to such campaigns
U gotta go against the establishment aite
haha
I aint saying we just gonna let it go but we must realise its a losing rearguard action
So the plan is ot say go ahead n fuck ard boys n girls
I dont give a damm
buttttttttt use damm bloody protection
Dats the way if teens r now able to purchase ciggies they cld damm well buy a pack of condoms
Its cheaper....... n theres no age limit i think
Instead of the community keep going on and on and on abt the evils of premaritial sex. Look up n smell the roses, reality differs from utopia
u r not gonna succeed
Nobody n imean nobody is a perfect god fearing creature
But wld they finally wake up???
Of course not n u noe y
Cos we r still adamm hidebound traditional community who despite yrs of attempt to reform it, its still stuck
Superficial changes but no real paradigm shift in the place it matters msot
the Blardyyyy mind
The elites dont speak the masses language n thus wtf is there to do
All the campaigns such as the one stated above aint gonna work cos we r too cool for dat
Hahahaha
so does the future look bleak for us?????/
Well........


Of course it does, we r doomed itell u
hahhahahaha

heres a new song frm a defunct band


Bitter Sweet Symphony
'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold ,
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no
Well, I've never prayed,
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind ,
I feel free now
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change, but I'm here in my mold , I am here in my mold But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now
(Well have you ever been down?) (I can't change, I can't change...)(Ooooohhhhh...)

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life

Confessions

I am narcissistic. Do u tink so?
Well to most, i tink all of my frens i am.
In a sense, i can comprehend y they came to the conclusion.
Im basically a crappy guy with verbal diarrhoea n i like to shoot my mouth off....(the missus has been tolerating it for ages)
Hence i have dis tendency to praise myself a bit too much which i must warn its not a really endearing habit unless u r me cos im lovable hahahhahaa
But seriously its not dat im a braggart, there exists a small emotional timid side of me.
My inner child is a vulnerable creature that seeks acceptance n care
My outside persona its just a pretence for my weak n tortured self so dat i can hold my head up high
And most importantly....................

All of the above r basically bovine shit n guess wat, i am a narcissistic arsehole n in truth i tink i am freaking lovable
Hahhahahaaa got u all there
i just love myself sometimes

Santeria
I don't practice santeria
I aint got no crystal ball.
I had a million dollars but I I'd spend it all,
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she's found,
well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down.
What I really wanna know, my baby, what I really want to say I can't define.
Well it's love, that I need, oh ,
but my soul will have to, wait till I get back find heina of my own.
Daddy's gonna love one and all.
I feel the break, feel the break, feel the break and I got live it out,
oh, yea huh, well I swear that I.
What I really wanna know, my baby, what I really want to say I can't define.
that love make it go, my soul will have to...ohhh
What I really wanna say, my baby,
What I really wanna say is I've got mine. and I'll make it, Yes, I'm comin' up.
Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him he best go run and hide.
Daddy's got a new .45. and I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat. Believe me when I say that I got somethin for his punk ass.
What I really wanna know, my baby,
oh what I really wanna say is there's just one, way back, and I'll make it, yea,
but my soul will have to wait.
yea, yea, yea

Ramblings

Well as u all know my hp is lost. Dammmm im still pissed abt it.
Gonna use the missus old hp n shes still nagging me abt going drinking to often.
Skool gonna start soon, same old shit of lectures n tutorials but its weird i kinda of missed campus...maybe cos im dead shagged frm working so much n skool to me its relaxing.
Stupid SMU still havent reply n now CORS bidding is in full swing, i might end up with 3 modules only.
Damm need to go for IPPt as well b4 the freaking Army fined me again like last yr.
Blardy total defence.
Speaking abt skool, i jsut heard a fren has been elected as VP for the Muslim society. Congrats man.
But......(u think im dat nice.. is it?)
im sorry to say no offence intended dat i do not agree with its direction or the way they conduct its affairs
U want to noe y?







Just wait........ hahahahahha
N dis song is going out to my missus........
Emotion
It's over and donebut the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging toinstead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow lost in the song but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tigh
tnobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
I'm there at your side,I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrowlost in the song but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you goI'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrowlost in the song but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

Hahahahha cloying right
N i dont give a flying f*** so i like the damm song
Ciao

F**king shit

I lost my hp
For the first fucking time i lost i.
Even when im freaking drunk i never lost it
Now when im not i lost it
Damm it. Its such a hassle now i got to purchase a new one
F*** iy
Im freaking pissed right now nvr thot dat it wld happen to me.
Left in the fucking cab
blardy uncle shld not have engage in the conversation
Bad shit happens but fu** it such a waste of effort
Dammmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!

It is not a freaking love song !!!!!!!

Was in the transport back and litsening to my MP3 when i realised something.
There is a whole lot of idiots out there who thot No woman No cry is a freaking romantic hit.
Used your blardy ears n brain for Lucifer's sake. I even came across a compilation which listed it as one the greatest love hits. Wtf***.
To idiots out there go find its lyrics n read it
Its abt repression, freedom n hope
Not some pseudo struggle dat some young muthaf***as tink they r having
Oh no im being repressed, need to express myself
All this emo punk candyass shit
Look ard n we r freeaking lucky we r at cold sanitised Spore
not in Qanaa or Tyre Or Gaza or Darfur or even in the hills of Burma
Confused???
Read the news then n be aware
Here's Bob MArley "love song"
No woman no cry
No, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry.
'Cause - 'cause - 'cause I remember when a we used to sitIn a government yard in Trenchtown,
Oba - obaserving the 'ypocrites - yeah! -
Mingle with the good people we meet, yeah
!Good friends we have, oh, good friends we have lostAlong the way, yeah!In this great future, you can't forget your past;So dry your tears, I seh.
Yeah!No, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry. Eh, yeah!
A little darlin', don't shed no tears:No, woman, no cry.
Eh!Said - said - said I remember when we used to sitIn the government yard in Trenchtown, yeah!
And then Georgie would make the fire lights,I seh, logwood burnin' through the nights, yeah!Then we would cook cornmeal porridge, say,
Of which I'll share with you, yeah!
My feet is my only carriage
And so I've got to push on through.
Oh, while I'm gone,
Everything's gonna be all right!Everything's gonna be all right!Everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
Everything's gonna be all right!Everything's gonna be all right-a!Everything's gonna be all right!Everything's gonna be all right, yeah!
Everything's gonna be all right!
So no, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry.I seh,
O little - O little darlin', don't shed no tears;
No, woman, no cry, eh.No, woman - no, woman - no, woman, no cry;No, woman, no cry.
One more time I got to say:
O little - little darlin', please don't shed no tears;
No, woman, no cry.

Et tu Kyai ?

Just woken up after working closing yesterday
I love sleep too much i think.
But i dont give a flying F@#*

Hmmm y do i get myself a blog?
For some innate desire to express myself?
i have ideas n need a space to share it ?
Some intellectual or emotional crap?

Of course not!!!!!!!
Its for freaking self glorification
And it gives me something to do on the net other than surfing porn
Hahahaha

This is a test posting

Hahhahahahaha can u read dis? Im finally on the web hahahahahah
Something that can outlast my sorry ass carcass